have u ever been in a room full of friends but feel the uttermost loneliness? okie well maybe not uttermost but somewhat close to it. like ur friends are there but u're just alone? in the semi permeable membrane that while it seperates u, lets in certain sounds/objects that entertains u while u contemplate on why u're feeling the way u are? okie that probably won't make sense to u guys cos u're not my head. but u know.. recently been feeling a bit displaced and i dunno why.

maybe it's the coming back to perth and the start of my last semester of school in uwa. maybe it's just me missing home. or missing the company i have back home. or maybe coupled with the fact that i'm graduating, i still dunno what my plans are, whether to study more or go work first. pple have been asking me what am i going to do after i grad. i honestly have no proper answer to that qn (so please stop asking me) i think i'm actually going thru the same thing that nari and sasa went thru man. i do know however, that i don't wanna go into the teaching profession straight out of uni.

now more than ever i'm feeling displaced to the pt where i don't want to do anything at all. i have to like prep for my jap classes and read my readings on why calling indonesia a nation state is problematic. after like staying on and off in indonesia for the past 12 years i have finally decided to take the initiative to learn more abt the country my maternal grandma came from. i just realised how little i know of it. except that their sambal is damm power and my maid cooks like the best indo food ever man. that and the fact that going to spa there is freaking cheap. anyways, back to being displaced. i don't even feel like socialising. not that i'm a socialable person to being with. heh. if possible i wld wanna stay in my room the whole sem. talk abt being a recluse.

oh wells... i kinda lost what i had wanted to blog abt after my shower. as usual, showers do wonders for me. washing away my befuddled mind of thoughts. metaphorically speaking. literally it just relaxes me. oh wells.. hopefully i'll find my sunshine days again. it's beeeeennnnnn sooooooooo longggggggggggg.... ひさしぶりだね。。。早く来るよ！じゃ！また今度。。。